dream journal

warning: some dreams may contain mature themes

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january 7, 2025

cw // tornado

Tornado nightmare.

december 24, 2024

cw // n/a

I did an edible in a strip mall with Maxx and Tony and got separated from them and ended up in an extremely cramped antique jewelry store where I had to navigate a conversation with a middle-aged woman.

december 22, 2024

cw // n/a

So much happened. There was some sort of summer camp thing in a castle school place? There was like a theory that Collin didn't like women I think? We put on a really bad performance of Cabaret and Tony was Emcee and then it got stopped in the middle bc like barely any of the actors actually showed up and we were performing it for two kings and one of the kings was asleep and only woke up after we stopped the show and then to distract them my high school choir teacher took his shirt off and had female tits for some reason and was covered in glitter and started doing some sort of song IDK.

december 20, 2024

cw // n/a

Episode 5 of The Amazing Digital Circus came out and it somehow made it exist in the same universe as both Gravity Falls and Star Wars

december 16, 2024

cw // divorce

My dad took me, Tony, Maxx, and Maria to the bank for some reason and then my anatomy teacher was my top artist on Spotify and then I was in the car with my mom and I was like, "Are you getting a divorce?" (apparently in tbe dream world this was something that had been building for a few months??) And she was really cryptic about it and I screamed until I couldn't talk anymore and we got home and I was begging my parents please just tell me I need to know and they finally were like yes and I screamed more even though it was like excruciatingly painful at this point and then my mom accused my dad of having a sex playlist???

december 11, 2024

cw // n/a

We went to a MBMBAM live show and instead of Clint doing the intro it was the Reds mascot and he butchered it entirely while playing golf at the same time and then I got dragged on stage and given a script and made to recite Shakespeare but they didn't tell me which lines were mine and which were the brothers' and I got so stressed out and confused I woke myself up.

december 5, 2024

cw // n/a

My elementary school music teacher dragged me and Audrey back to our elementary school for the talent show and said we had to do a duet so we did something from Wicked, IDK what.

december 3, 2024

cw // animal death, tornado

Me, Tony, and Maria were supposed to hang out and go somewhere but suddenly it was hailing and I was like, "Hm, odd, I'm gonna check the weather map," And there was a cat 5 tornado in town coming straight for my house and the sirens weren't going off so I rushed my family to the basement and luckily it went away before it hit my house so then we waited for the storm to pass to hang out but for some reason I was like let's go visit Vent and for some reason we had her on Life360 so we could see where she lives so we started driving and for some reason South Carolina was actually New York City so that's where we were going and on the way there Tony did a hit and run and once we got to nyc the storm was also there and we got to vents house and found a stray cat and we got on a plane to go home and we were actually evil so we had to pretend we were someone else and then we got the cat home and it ate something and died.

october 11, 2024

cw // apocalypse, nuke

There was a nuke dropped and we survived in my basement and Jack C started a roaming gang of marching band members and led them to my house.

september 9, 2024

cw // n/a

Most people have the baby dream, I had a pet opossum dream. His name was Heaven and he was my sweetest boy and he escaped out the door when I wasn't home and it was the worst thing to ever happen to me. I'd thought I found him and chased him all the way through the neighborhood to catch him then I got him home and his face markings were different and it turned out my neighbor also had a pet opossum and it was theirs and I never did find Heaven, I spent days searching and never found any sign of him.

september 4, 2024

cw // animal death

The dream was like really unclear and short and I don't fully know what happened if she got out or died or what but something happened to Lucky (my cat) and I woke up like sweaty and hyperventilating and my heart racing.

august 31, 2024

cw // n/a

Lucky (my cat), despite being spayed and no contact with other cats but y'know it's a dream so logic's out the window, had kittens and I named them Inky, Blinky, Pinky, Dinky, and Stinky.

august 25, 2024

cw // n/a

I had to forge a military ID for someone to get into an airport and then after they got through an agent was like, "That's the wrong font," And I was like "No it's not," So him and another agent started chasing me and the airport turned into a school and it was the day before school so the teachers were there getting ready but there were not students so I couldn't blend in so I ran into a classroom and shut the door and it was Mr. Moore and I was like, "Please don't ask," and he was like, "Ok."

august 18, 2024

cw // n/a

My neighbors got a new truck that was so hideously bright purple it physically burned my eyes and Monica, Emma, Aries, and Grant (my neighbors) were all over there looking at it.

august 10, 2024

cw // n/a

Dream was so fire that I had a dream about putting it in here but now I've awoken and me putting it here wasn't real and I can't remember what the dream was about.

july 22, 2024

cw // n/a

We spontaneously moved into this giant house on the same property as Poasttown Elementary School and my parents were like, "It's cheap," And I was like, "IT'S CHEAP FOR A REASON THE LEAD PAINT IS PEELING AND IT HAS DEMONS!" But we'd already moved in by that point so there wasn't much we could do, we also found out once we moved in that the second floor was just. Off limits. So we didn't have any bedrooms. So it just kind of generally sucked even aside from the ghosts.

july 17, 2024

cw // drugs, nudity

All I remember was that like my mom's Instagram got hacked or something and all they did was post the same picture of an overweight naked woman walking through the Meijer parking lot at night caught on CCTV with the caption "THE RATS ARE COMING" in the style of the Encanto baby "benadryl overdose" meme.

june 14, 2024

cw // kidnapping, nonconsensual sex

I got kidnapped and forced to bow chicka wow wow with this popular guy I don't like. This occured in the McDonald's Play Place level of Shrek in the Backrooms by the way.

may 29, 2024

cw // n/a

Me, Tony, and some other people were trying to escape from the cops down this alleyway, then at some point we ended up at school and had to get somewhere and needed to use a staircase and I was like let's use this one and I had a specific nickname for it I can't remember but in this dream this staircause was between our freshman year english teacher's classroom and the garage so we tried to get tehre through the band room but it was locked then our concert band teacher appeared and was like, "Alright here you go," And let us through and we were like, "Hell yeah."

may 29, 2024

cw // death, swearing

Was more like a nightmare, first Penny (my dog) died after eating trash then a dog got hit in the road then some other dog died somehow and it was really fucked up.

march 22, 2024

cw // death, fire

I was at my grandparents' house with my cousin and Penny (my dog) and we were just hanging out and for some reason my grandpa (who was alive and healthy here for some reason) kept thinking there was a fire out back or something because he kept hearing something? But we never really investigated too hard, then he finally like comes in the living room and is like, "There has got to be a fire out there," So I follow him to investigate but as he turns the corner from the kitchen to the hallway he gets scared and cries out and nearly falls over and silently ushers me away and I was so scared of what he could have possibly seen to cause that reaction that I woke up so I have no idea what he saw, also it's worth noting that in this dream he had some sort of crazy curse on him for upsetting an old man in his youth so it could've been something related to that curse? I also remember in the moments before waking up thinking he like saw an intruder or something. It's also interesting to me that it was ingrained in my to not bring up Ginger (my dog) around him because he was so broken up about her death, when in reality he died months before her so I have no idea how he would've felt.

february 15, 2024

cw // fire, potty humor

Me, Maxx, Talan, Tony, Maria, Dylan, and maybe others were at this weird ren faire type place and all the teachers were there and we got superpowers that were designed by these teachers and we all had to figure out what they were. Talan had super speed and super strength which he figured out right away, Maria's was also figured out quite quickly (fire farts), then we tried to figure out Maxx's. I got separated from the group and eventually ran into Chef and was like, "Hey do you know what Maxx's power might be? They got number twenty-three," And she was like, "Oh, they know now, also I designed that one," Then I found the group again and found out Maxx's power was like essentially Jedi mind tricks, I kept trying to figure out mine but couldn't, we went back to my house in hopes that we'd just figure out our powers naturally instead of trying to force it and when we got home it turned out Penny (my dog) also got powers because she was bipedal and talking.

february 4, 2024

cw // attempted murder, spiders

Dylan and I were in this forest trying to hide from someone for some reason so we found his massive building and hid in it and I found out the cabinets on one end of the building opened up into a secret tunnel to take you to the other side of the building so I got in but then immediately got back out because I saw a big spider then for some reason instead of being in the forest the building was now where the church at the end of my street was so I was like hey let's go to the bakery so we walked down to the bakery and while Dylan was looking through the fridges for something to drink I went to the counter to order donuts and I was like, "I want a cinamon roll donut and a- do you still have those twisted glaze donuts?" Because apparently the last time my dad had been to the bakery in the dream world they didn't have them anymore, and the blonde lady working at the counter incredibly judgmentally replied, "They're actualy called Mr. Twistys now." And I was like, "Uhhh, okay, A cinnamon roll donut and a Mr. Twisty." And then I got my donuts and Dylan got her drink and then instead of the bakery being downtown it was on the beach and a bunch of witches came and made really big waves to try and kill us so we had to fight the witches.

february 2, 2024

cw // weed

I went on a quest where the reward was these little spheres of weed. I woke up with a leg cramp before I got a chance to smoke them.

january 24, 2024

cw // blood, death, gore, tornado

The whole band was in South Carolina for some reason and we were at this mall and it was snowing a lot then there was a tornado so we all hid in these bunkers, our band director tried to make me laugh and stuff to not be so scared but then the tornado actually hit us and everyone went flying, I went unconscious and woke up in the morning, luckily uninjured as the snow padded my fall but on a train track, so I got up and ran off to a nearby farmers market where I found Tony and Maria, we decided to go back to the ruins of the mall to see if we could find anyone. We found Talan there and he was fine so he joined us in our search. We went to where the bunker we were at was and found Maxx slumped against a tree, blood dripping from their mouth and nose, their stomach open and guts spilling out, a thick path of blood where you can see they dragged themself from somewhere else to the tree, their legs are completely broken. I start sobbing and can't bare to look at them while Tony and Maria inspect closer. They suddenly start coughing and we realize they're still alive, although barely. They seem to miraculously be mentally fine, but are still coughing up blood and can't walk. we move into a circle, they drag themself over to lean against the wall next to me and we just like chill. For some reason we talk about Hannibal and the guy from Supernatural appears for a second to make a joke and is just not addressed. Natalie appears and we're wearing matching socks. Finally, I call our band director and he gets us to a hospital where Maxx can be treated for their injuries and they survive, though are now wheelchair bound.

[Extra Context: A few hours later Maxx was telling me about their dream that they had at the same time where they were in the same condition as pictured in my dream and how they woke up with a nauseous pain in their stomach from their guts being poured out.]

january 20, 2024

cw// n/a

I was assigned Steven as my roommate for the Disney trip.

january 14, 2024

cw // attempted murder

We were at solo and ensemble and I did so bad that the judge, an elderly woman, tried to kill me.

january 4, 2024

cw // n/a

I was at the park by my house walking Penny with my mom and we were about to leave the park to go home when I noticed someone had dug a giant hole through the ground into the sewers and I jokingly went, "Looks like someone's trying to escape through the sewers." Then I turned around and at first I thought my mom had fallen in but then I realized she jumped in on purpose and suddenly she had this giant chunk of mud in her hands and started eating it. I tried to call my dad but my phone was covered in mud and wouldn't work.

january 2, 2024

cw // death, swearing

Tony died and I was like SOBBING and then I "woke up" but was actually still dreaming and was like, "Oh, thank God, it was just a dream." Then I checked my phone and it was like nope it was real he's dead and then I cried so much that I actually woke up for real and was like, "What the fuck."

december 24, 2023

cw // n/a

My choir teacher wore a dress + heels + lipstick to a concert and he ate so hard I've never been so upset to wake up and realize something wasn't real he was absolutely slaying.

december 10, 2023

cw // n/a

I got dropped off at this Hot Topic and they didn't have what I was looking for so I went to Walmart to look for bananas but they were all artificially ripened so I just got a bottle of water. idk why i suddenly cared about how the bananas were ripened. i don't even like bananas.

december 9, 2023

cw // death, swearing

My sophomore Algebra II teacher and my dad were snuggled up all gay on the chair in the living room and my dad was streaming my teacher's iPad to the TV to help him make a cutecore Tumblr blog then we were on stage for something for band seniors and this one trumpet player I was friends with freshman year's three year old brother named Rat >five middle names I don't remember< >lastname< was holding up like an 83" sign that said, "My name is Rat >five middle names I don't remember< >lastname<," And I muttered under my breath, "I hope that kid fucking dies." IDK why I was so enraged by that but I guess I was. Then me and my gender neutral child were in our little cottagecore house in the middle of the forest away from civilization and it was Minecraft but like y'know dream Minecraft where everything is normal Minecraft except you're a human person and it was night and a werewolf was climbing our cherry tree trying to get us so I put two cobblestone blocks in front of our door so it couldn't get in also Rat was supposed to be delivering us rare flowers in the morning and I was like man I can't let this werewolf stay outside so I climbed the cherry tree and killed it with my sword and when it died it had an animation of its human form crawling out of its mouth and ascending to heaven as its wolf form crumbled.

december 1, 2023

cw // death, spiders

Charlie Slimecicle was on the QSMP and there was like a museum of different species of egg and he said he heard people talking about a closed off section of slime eggs so he broke in and found a forest slime egg which was literally just a picture of Gegg and he had this big emotional moment of "This is who I am" and then I was at comic con with Mal and people were dying and my band director climbed a light pole and told us about all the little creatures that lived in it like spiders and such but up at the very top he told us about something I don't remember which was like a paper cut scab but it was alive and then I had a bunch of pets and they all died.

october 10, 2023

cw // n/a

Me, Tony, and some other girl were on vacation at this resort on a tropical island. Tony brought his pet koala, which ran away into the jungle. We ran after it trying to find it but ran into a brown bear mom and her three babies, who chased us through the jungle. We were unable to recover Tony's koala.

september 30, 2023

cw // n/a

It was just a compilation of David Tennant being thrown around on a plane, one of them was him sliding down the isle passed out on top of the cart the flight attendants serve food on.

august 23, 2023

cw // tornado

We were hanging out at my house except the entire front wall was now a big glass window and then there was a tornado so AJ closed the blinds in front of the window (reluctantly, I had to beg) and we went down to the basement and for some reason my neighbors did too and then we went from first person to third person from above with name tags over our heads saying our first names and one of the neighbors was named Hank and we stayed there until after the tornado obvi and then everyone became Star Wars characters and now I was in the POV of Anakin and we go upstairs and this one house got leveled and now I have the context that house was Anakin's girlfriend (not Padmé for some reason) and her little sister and then there's a time skip Anakin reunites with his girlfriend's sister who's a teenager now and she's like yeah ur girlfriend turned into a bear and then Obi-Wan falls to the dark side for accidentally doing one of the seven deadly sins. Also for some reason my neighborhood was actually Hollywood, all the houses were the same but now they had neon signs in front of them.

august 13, 2023

cw // n/a

Audrey responded to my DM on TikTok. That's it that was the whole dream.

july 26, 2023

cw // n/a

I accidentally gave away the Hank reveal too early and it stressed me out so much.

july 9, 2023

cw // n/a

Lucky (my cat) got out and we couldn't catch her no matter what we did.

july 3, 2023

cw // cocaine, death, swearing, violence

We were in a country where cocaine was legal so my family tried it except me and Mal straight up died and I beat my parents' asses (broke my mom's nose and kicked my dad in the dick a few times) also I was texting Mal's best friend the whole time for some reason.

june 25, 2023

cw // death, funeral

We were having a funeral for Josh (he was alive it was like a bit or something) and for some reason it was in like a zoo and they shoved everyone + a rock band in this tiny ass enclosure with these two little tiny monkeys and I was sitting in the back with Dylan and one of them latched it's teeth into my hand and killed me.

june 6, 2023

cw // death, swearing

I forget what it was but certain people were made illegal and being forced to do a game show on TV where they would die brutal and gorey deaths and I was one of those people so me and these two other people were running from place to place hiding in basements and attics and stuff and they had like hired the show choir except Audrey and Nolan as like a police force and so like at one point I ran past Collin and he was like, "Hey!" And I was like, "Shit!" And he chased me for a while and I thought I got away but then I looked up and he was there and he like pounced and got me and I got forced into a big giant arena thing with a massive screen and like a million other people who had the illegal attribute and we were told we're gonna watch an episode of the game show and Katlyn and Audrey were there and then I was fidgeting with the seat and found a bunch of buttons and stuff and I realized we were in the game show and we were all gonna die. Also I was running around hiding with two other people there was green which I think might have been Audrey and orange which was like white haired Nolan and at one point one of the houses we were hiding at was Nolan's grandparents' so he was just sort of chilling also I think Audrey had already been captured by this point and his grandma was okay with me being there but then at one point for some reason I went outside and his grandpa came home and saw me go in the front door so I had to run away and got separated from Nolan and then that's when I ran into Collin. The illegal attribute might have been choir related, I think it might have been people who sing because I think I remember the show choir police situation being like a sort of thing where it's like if you turn in your fellow singers we won't kill you or something but they probably ended up getting killed in the end, IDK I died before any of that stuff could happened.

june 4, 2023

cw // swearing

It was the first day of school and we were in the middle school but it was still high school and I was in my eigth grade math teacher's class and I sat down at a table hoping to be either alone or with friends and then Emery sat next to me and I was like fuck's sake and then my eigth grade best friend say next to me and i was like God damn it and then Collin sat next to me and I was like this can only go badly and it was just like the worst possible seating.

june 2, 2023

cw // n/a

Someone ran over Audrey's foot with a marimba and I got really angry and loudly threatened to kill them and the band director had to pull me aside and tell me I can't do that and I just started sobbing.

april 20, 2023

cw // n/a

I had to pick up people to bring them places, pit Kaitlyn was moving and may was coming with us where we were going. my grandma was using my dad's car which for some reason was a little pink Barbie car and I was like, "How is Kaitlyn gonna move her whole life in this?" And she was like, "Oops." So we used my uncle's truck which conveniently was at my house, we got Kaitlyn but weren't able to get May, who we also had to pick up. My grandma dropped me off at this random school the band director told us to be dropped off at. We were supposed to get an actual good nights sleep but then Nolan tried to sleep on the stairs and was like, "Guys there's stuff up here." So we follow him and there's like a big game where you have to get through it and it was like you had to jump on certain tiles or big chumbly would get mad and kill you with sun rays and I made it to the end before the rest of my group (which i think was Audrey, Josh, Dylan, and Maxx) and there was a boss battle and I won and then a staff member named Trixie was like, "Okay, you're the boss battle now."

march 17, 2023

cw // death

I had been having fainting spells like what my mom had at Cedar Point so my parents took me to the hospital because if I had what my mom had then I was like dying but it turned out I actually had some sort of disease and only had a few days left to live. I was very much in denial, didn't seem to fully register it. Finally I was sitting in bed and just started sobbing yelling I don't want to die. I kept going on about how I'm too young, this isn't fair, and I don't deserve this. Then I started to get that headache I got before I fainted and jolted awake. I think I died. It was so scary. I didn't feel sick, but I was getting all this special treatment and everyone was so sad. I seemed to just be treating it like any other sickness, telling myself it'd go away and I'd be fine after a few days. My mom was by my side as it happened. I don't know where anyone else was. I remember Grandma being devastated. I couldn't imagine her losing a husband and then a grandchild just twelve days apart, because I think the dream took place just over the next week or so, if that. When I woke up the only way l could tell it had been a dream was that it was suddenly dark. If I had woken up in the morning with the light out I would have thought I'd just passed out and woken up again, because in the dream when I died it was morning and I was in bed.

[Extra Context: I actually had this dream during the day. I had stayed up all night ghost hunting with my friends then that morning was my Grandpa's funeral. Immediately after I got home from the funeral I fell asleep and had this dream. The dream took place that day onward as if I hadn't fallen asleep and was incredibly realistic.]

march 7, 2023

cw // death

Audrey was taking me home from school but for some reason Josh was driving (despite not having his license) and we were in one of those weird old cars with the three front seats and Audrey was in the middle and I was in the passenger seat and they were taking me to Audrey's house I thought to drop off Audrey first but then we ended up at my grandparents' house somehow even though they're in entirely different neighborhoods and I was like, "???" and Audrey was like, "This is where we were told to drop you off," And I was like, "Fuck, Grandpa died." So I went inside and Grandma was all sad seeming and I was like, "Hey," And she was like, "Hey," And then Grandpa just walked in and was like, "Hey I'm back from driving my monster truck!!" and I was like, "!?!?!?!?!"

[Extra Context: My grandpa was on his death bed in real life at the time, he died a few days later.]

march 7, 2023

cw // n/a

Dylan was running a money laundering scheme.

march 4, 2023

cw // n/a

I had a breakdown because I kept waking up in the middle of something with massive chunks of memory gone and I was like just completely freaking out full meltdown because I was obviously terrified. I think Maxx and Dylan were there, maybe AJ and Tony too?

february 5, 2023

cw // death

My mom was completely fine one second then she started feeling kinda woozy and within like 20 seconds she was dead. Richie (my uncle) and my dad were there too.

january 29, 2023

cw // decapitation, swearing

There was a Darth Vader puzzle of him with one hand decapitating a man and the other hand gentle petting the heads of two children so he needed to find two children to fill the role which obvi was Luke & Leia but Luke & Leia were actually me, Maxx, & Talan but in order to get the pieces to complete the puzzle we needed to win a Just Dance competition so we went to our Spanish teacher's house to train and his house was wild it was a fucking mansion covered in weird plants and knickknacks all over it was like a maximalist's dream and he had all these big dogs too and so he helped us train for the competition and finally we were ready so we went to the contest and we won and were able to complete the puzzle.

january 14, 2023

cw // n/a

I was playing Phasmophobia but it was like IRL and it was with Shane Madej and Ryan Bergara and the ghost was that little orange guy from the Roblox game Rainbow Friends except for some reason we were calling it a lion.

january 11, 2023

cw // explosions

I was at some sort of class with Rue and Noah in front of that big building on the big road by my house where they sell sheds and stuff outside of (or at least they used to I don't remember if they still do) and in the sky there was a helicopter which suddenly stopped working and we watched as it made its way back to town's main park/airport where it plummeted to the ground and exploded where it then launched circles of exploding debris into the air which the radius of it expanding, someone for some reason said "It must be from the lab", I think in this dream universe instead of having a factory in town we have a Hawkins-esque lab, so I sprinted full speed in the opposite direction to some sewers which also had explosives which Rue kept setting off but I was so much faster than it that it didn't matter and finally the sewers reached a Minecraft ravine which was fully decked out with torches and chests and crafting stations and a blue bed, all still fully in the style of Minecraft, it sort of felt like when there's a Gmod Minecraft map, and I hid under the bed and pulled the covers down to hide the sides.

january 11, 2023

cw // n/a

We had a smaller dog and my parents did some kind of weird dark magic to transfer Ginger's consciousness into that dog and it also made the dog's fur change to be colored like hers and it was really gross and creepy and I hated it.

january 11, 2023

cw // n/a

We were in my mom's hometown for something, I think we were in big sewers at one point.

january 6, 2023

cw // n/a

I was at a gay bar with the homies & had a massive penis and Ryan and Shane walked by (platonically) and I pointed at Ryan and blurted out, "I had a dream where you killed me!" And Shane fell to the floor laughing.

january 3, 2023

cw // death

I walked out of my house to go to choir at like 6AM and Ryan Bergara pulled up and killed my parents and then he found me hiding in the car and killed me too.

december 17, 2022

cw // death

I still went to my elementary school. We were driving home and were stopped. This nerdy kid with a too-big head, the worst haircut I've ever seen, and cartoonishly large glasses came out of the house with all the cats in it while we were stopped, came up to my window, and threw a brick through it. He then climbed through the window. The brick had collided with my head, causing me to lose the ability to move my body. I was instantly filled with excruciating pain as I was full of tiny pieces of glass. I died quickly and jolted awake.

november 8, 2022

cw // cannibalism, death

Nathan C killed and ate me because I said I don't like Caleb B.

july 5, 2022

cw // attempted murder

Collin and I were planning to murder some kid just to prove I could I think then I saw him sitting in my room playing Minecraft and I was supposed to take the shot and I couldn't so I fled and hid in the attic of the red house bc somehow I knew Collin was on his way to kill me so I hid in the attic, barricaded the entrance, and hid under a couch under a blanket while I called the police and told them a murder was about to occur.

may 25, 2022

cw // n/a

We went to New York City with the school band and went to this big supermarket-type building and brought Lucky (my cat) and I went to the bathroom with Chasity and then walked off without her and lost her and when looking for her I accidentally broke into the Queen's thing.

may 24, 2022

cw // suicide

The whole high school was at my elementary school for graduation. Each teacher was in a classroom and had randomized students to watch. I was with my sophomore Algebra II teacher in the art room. There were little slips of paper on his desk for a little math activity he was having us do. We weren't allowed to look at them but I was curious so I snuck one into my pocket when he wasn't looking. He told someone that he knows someone took a piece and they won't be graduating. When I got to the gym and sat down with Tony, Maxx, and AJ I started sobbing. When our graduation came around and I found out I wasn't going to graduate I killed myself.

february 22, 2022

cw // n/a

I was at the Cedar Point band trip thing we're doing in september and there was an all-you-can-eat hot dog bar and I was filling up my plate with hot dogs and my sophomore Spanish teacher came up behind me.

february 7, 2022

cw // n/a

CaptainSparklez lived in my town and it was a big secret that the whole town was somehow keeping. He lived on the big street by my house.

january 25, 2022

cw // ableism

It was middle school and I was in my seventh grade math teacher's room and those girls at school who were throwing apples at us and think they're in Euphoria or some shit were bullying this disabled kid in my class (one stepped in the class and went, "Um," and just expected him to like move, none of them were even in that class) so they started making fun of him and calling him stupid for not moving, and I started crying and ran into the next classroom to tell a teacher bc our teacher wasn't there, and he calmly listened but then wouldn't do anything about it.

january 21, 2022

cw // death

Me, Maxx, Tony, and Talan were a band and recording a music video in my grandparents' front yard when the light brown dog from next door walked up except he was huge and I thought he was a deer so I ran away then he started chasing me and I realized it was him so I went to the garage to play CPR by CupcakKe to scare him away but it actually made him maul me to death.

december 28, 2021

cw // death, school shooting

There was some sort of art class at this big building downtown I was taking them and I was right in front of the side door and there was a shooter threat and the guy next to me came in that side door and shit ppl he deemed "unvalid" just by looking at them and for some reason he decided I was so he took me to a back room trying to pretend he liked me then went in for a hug and shot me in the back of the neck but it went through into his chest and I could feel the blood running down my back as I slowly lost consciousness.

november 24, 2021

cw // war

I was at a weird mix of Disney/Universal but we called it Disney with some people from school like Audrey and Mia were there and I accidentally killed the leader of a Russian-esque country so he started World War III. Then my group (me, Audrey, Mia, maybe Josh and Kaitlyn) all went and hid in the back corner of this weird mallish store where there was a Hot Topic and we boxed ourselves in.

november 23, 2021

cw // death, swearing

Instead of Lucky (my cat) we got a snake and we were all terrified of her and she bit my ass and I died and I tried to call out for help but no sound would come out.

november 22, 2021

cw // 9/11

I was listening to The Beatles on Spotify because they had done covers of Ad Astra and another song from choir and then my mom came in and then for some reason we time traveled back to 9/11 to find her childhood friend (even though she was an adult and in Ohio on 9/11) but in this universe during 9/11 she was a child and was there watching it and actually grew up in New York and suddenly there was a tiny kids train going by and I thought they were chucking rocks at me but then it turned out it was actually a little girl dressed in purple under the bridge and it was my mom's friend and her name was like Avon or something then we went back to the present and went to New York to find her and we went to this mall and went to Macy's (the store) and there was this girl in purple with the name tag with her name on it and I was like yo it's her and so there was a really awkward friendship rekindling.

november 19, 2021

cw // harry potter

Me, Maxx, Talan, and Tony were at my elementary school and I was like, "Woah, look, aurora borealis," But it was actually Maxx's patronus and all our patronuses plus McGonagall's came down from the sky and mine was like a cat fish (literally) thing and Tony's was also a cat fish (literally) thing and Maxx's was a cat and then Audrey's mom showed us how to change player model size so I became big because I'm an enderman.

november 19, 2021

cw // bugs

Me and my family, Maxx and their family, and Talan and his family all moved into a big house that was being built and it was like scary because there were bugs everywhere and also there were like cryptids after us trying to kill us.

november 17, 2021

cw // cancer, death

Ginger (my dog) died. She had cancer.

[Extra Context: Ginger was diagnosed with cancer in real life december 27, 2022. She died seven months later.]

november 15, 2021

cw // bugs

My mom took me to the store with Talan, Tony, and Maxx and I bought like one of those butterfly hair clips but giant and made of slightly softer plastic and then there was something at school with band and we were talking about our band director and then then I missed a day and then I drove them all from my grandparents' house to school on a car that was only seats and two dogs a cute bulldog named bully and a big sweet pit bull ran to meet us then a bug, I think a bee, was in my ear and said, "Yo you got a bug in yo head."

november 14, 2021

cw // brain damage, death, swearing

My parents took me and my friends out to a parking lot at night to play in the snow and as we were walking Nathan C's mom ran over my dad and he was fine until his head hit the ground and I carried him back to the hospital to and then it showed him as an old man and Mal's daughter (who when she was born we [me and my mom] made a joke about how pale she is, because we wouldn't have expected Mal to have such a pale kid, we expected that from me) was talking to him and apparently it like fucked up his brain permanently.

november 9, 2021

cw // n/a

Me, Maxx, and Tony were hanging out at my house then for some reason me and Maxx started making packers and wearing them.

october 14, 2021

cw // death

We were at band before the choir concert and Audrey's dad climbed this weird ladder thing and it fell and he died.

october 13, 2021

cw // n/a

We were in the high school gym and there was a blow up slide and I had a baby sibling who slid down it as a big crowd watched and then Captain Puffy who was my mom shoved it in her mouth and when the crowd was taken aback she was like, "No this is how you take care of baby birds I know I'm a sheep." It was not a bird.

october 13, 2021

cw // attempted murder, kidnapping

We went to a car dealership and there were two guys in a tree hitting us with rocks then they came down and kidnapped my mom and then it turned out they were working for my mom's dad and then I ran to Grandma and Grandpa's house down the street and told them then had to hide in the bathroom because Grandma tried to kill me.

october 6, 2021

cw // n/a

I see Eli on geocaching so I message him like, "Hey! It's me!" And he's like, "Hey! Let's play" And I invite him to my Minecraft server and then it's like he moved back into town and so I try to find him at school but I can't because I haven't seen him since he was 7 and I try asking Josh because they're friends but he acts like he's never heard of him.

october 3, 2021

cw // n/a

We replaced Ginger (my dog).

september 29, 2021

cw // n/a

I was hanging out with Cierra Frye and I accidentally made a VenturianTale reference and I felt really bad because I was like bringing up trauma.

september 11, 2021

cw // n/a

Me and Audrey (maybe Talan, Maxx, and Tony too?) played hide and seek except we were both hiding and seeking at the same time and we were completely disguised so I went all out and won.

september 3, 2021

cw // war

The USA (particularly our school) was invaded and me, Avery, and someone else got up in a hot air balloon to get away. Then it cut to a different thing where the same thing happened but we were at band and my 9th grade geometry teacher was mad at me for cutting a piece of cardboard so I started crying then they attacked so me, Audrey, Josh, and someone else all piled into my mom's car and hid at my house.

august 18, 2021

cw // n/a

We decided to hike through a forest at night and I could tell someone was following us but nobody would believe me and I had to keep Mal from leaving the group to go off on their own because I didn't want them to die alone.

july 22, 2021

cw // n/a

We were driving somewhere and there was a big single-road hill up in the air with no supports over a big body of water. The truck in front of us went over the edge causing us to as well.

july 22, 2021

cw // n/a

I accidentally destroyed the planet except for my family because we lived on the moon and they didn't know and I had to live with that guilt without being able to tell them.

june 20, 2021

cw // n/a

Ginger (my dog) was barking and I woke up and I went to go pee then Ginger barked again and I actually woke up and I was very confused.

june 14, 2021

cw // n/a

I was at some house party after a day at Disney and I don't remember what happened then we went to Magic Kingdom the next day and I wore jeans but then everyone trying to check in wearing jeans got sent back out and the microwave guy told us they aren't allowing jeans today so I pulled out my tan shorts and put them on right there so I entered the park and told Nathan C and Caleb R that if we get bored here we can park hop to Epcot since we didn't have a great time there then we went to this little golf looking thing and there was a Jesus and we named him like Yeesus or something then we met back up because there was an emergency and Audrey's group had named their Jesus Sheesus then planes came and we got on them and I got on one with Yeesus and Collin and also for some reason Katie was there but then the like captain told Katie to go to the other plane because they would need her and I was like, "Hey, uhh can I go with her I need someone I know I'm kinda scared," And the captain was like sure so I sat with Katie.